I want nothing more than for everything between us to be alright, even if we do not speak. I was in your area the other day with Andrew and he wanted to go somewhere in town to eat. I started to drive in that direction but when I realized how close we were to your house I had to turn around. I couldn't even bring myself to drive through the streets we had walked so often, how would I be able to walk them with Andrew? My stomach was hurting, my heart felt like it was going to pound right out of my chest. It took everything I had not to start crying. I saw so many cars identical to yours I lost count. Every time I passed one I had to look to see if it was you. Of course it never was. I'm not sure what I would have done if one of those times I looked over into the car next to me and saw you staring back. Would I be so happy to see your face again? Would I be startled, even though that was what I wanted and expected to see? Or would every emotion in me counter act the other until I broke down and cried? I'm not quite sure I want to find out.